I don't know when to take a break

So for the most part I'm a pretty chill person. I like to take things easy, but i am constantly finding myself uneasy, and eager to do something. I served my mission for two years, and every minute of that was planned out and very busy. I had my days planned out by the half hour, and i would plan my days weeks in advance. It was crazy to say the least. Now i have no agenda, and so i do what i want, when i want. But its kind of driving me crazy. I find that I really need to stay busy. I am always cleaning, organizing, working or playing. I find myself on the couch doing nothing less and less, and out and about more and more. Since I'm not in school, I do have alot of free time on my hands, and so its easy to be board and get into trouble... or just sleep all day. I'm not sure why i complain about work so much, cuz in all reality it is a good thing... mentally and financially. I couldn't imagine not having a job. I have a good friend that is jobless and doing all he can to get another job, and I just feel so bad for him, and figure that it must be so hard staying busy without work. But knowing him, he's probably busy with his own personal endeavors... he's pretty creative. If anyone can handle being without a job, its Joe. Work is ever so exciting,(lie) but i realize that there are a ton of people out there that would die for my job and pay, so i am grateful... not because of others, but because i am genuinely thankful for my employment. The Davenport rocks!

School is coming up here pretty soon. January 7th to be exact. I'm stoked to get back to Rexburg and party it up! I really miss that place, and being back at home makes me realize how much that place really means to me. I'm a psychology major at the moment with a pre-med emphasis. Its pretty cool, and more than anything I wanna get into med school and become a doctor. I don't strike most people as a doctor type, but i want to be one not because I'm smart(which I'm not) but because i have a genuine desire to help others. I'm sure all of the jaws will drop when i walk into my 10 year high school anniversary and tell people I'm a doctor. It'll be sweet. But even more sweeter knowing that I will be fulfilling a dream of mine. Going into medicine has not always been the plan. I always thought that I was too dumb to be a doctor, but after serving a mission and surviving the two hardest years of my life doing the most important work there is to do, I realize that I can do anything now. I know that a person like me will have to work extra hard at it, but i know that it will be that extra beneficial to me in the future and even more rewarding knowing that I am serving others and helping those in need every day. I'm only a sophomore in college, and i have a really long way to go, but for some reason i am ready for it, and not a bit discouraged at the fact that becoming a doctor is a long way off.

I've decided that I am going to end off each of my posts with something that I am thankful for. I am thankful for Panda Express. Man did I have an amazing plate of Madrine chicken today. I'm just not sure where I would go for nasty, cheep, yet delicious Chinese food if panda was not around. It is lame and simple, and almost gross, but man, I have eaten some really nasty things in my life, and so MSG filled panda express is amazing when you are just starving! Thank you Panda.