So there are a few things that go through my mind several times a day. These things are usually all the same, or at least cover the same topic. The majority of these things are pretty trivial and pointless to the rest of the world, but in Chachi's world they seem to be important due to how many times a day I think about them. For example; Food, Paraguay, a new car, becoming a weather man, girls, food (did I say that already?) church, what animal I would be if I could choose, and ice cream (although I guess that could go under the "food" category). Mind you some of the thought that I put into these topics are short and unimportant, but with others they can be much more complex and lengthy.
Lately it has been about girls... and not just girls in general, but one in particular. All of you who read this I'm sure don't know her, but every once and a while she pops into my head, and then my mind runs wild with ideas of the future for her and I, and then when I come back into reality I crash like a 747 that had a flock of Canada geese crash through the windshield of the cockpit that was being flown by a pilot that is deathly allergic to foul of any sort.
I guess I think way too much about her, but when it comes down to it, I'm just a wienie cuz I don't ask her out, or that it will never happen and I'm not fooling anyone. I feel like sometimes its much less painful to imagine and dream and then realize that its not true, than to try and and get shot down in real life. Is that something she would do? I dont know. Do I want to find out? No. Is it worth it? Only if she felt the same way. I guess I'm just a typical insecure guy that either can't commit, or is not willing to commit. Maybe someday I'll be able to show her this blog entry that only 2 people will read, and show her how much I thought about her, even before we were together. Wouldn't that just melt her heart!... there I go dreaming again!
So all of you how dream about the perfect significant other, join with me in saying that there is no harm in the dream, but there are also no results from just dreaming either.
2 comments:
As Reader #1, I would like to take this opportunity to tell you that you are a catch. Any girl would be lucky to have you. Seriously. And don't be afraid of rejection. What is worse would be wondering "What if..." for the rest of your life. Trust me! : )
Oh Chachi, you should just ask me out! :)
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