Finding a balance in my life is easy. I don't wanna sound cocky, but since there is nothing really going on in my life, it is easy to find that balance between work, play and rest. Well, today was one of those challenging days that tested the "balance" that I have seemed to have established. Working till 7am, sleeping till 8:30am, cleaning the church building till 9:45am then sleeping till 11am, then going to practice a special musical number at 12:00 for an hour, and an amazing and completely straight man date with Joe to Ming Wahs for lunch, was some what trying and exhausting! I was so tired by the time that I got home that I just collapsed till almost 7pm! It was amazing. Now being at work, its time for my quiet time.
Working the overnight shift can be pretty boring for some people... even me. I am a very social person. I love being around people and being in the spotlight. But this over night shift twice a week is a bit of a breather for me. It is a break from the craziness that goes on in this hotel, and to have some time to myself and get paid for it. I don't want to brag, but i feel like i am a pretty intellectual person, and I like to think about life. I spend a good time of my week contemplating about things and just having some Chathum time. It helps me to resolve my inner issues, and helps me be a better person.
I was asked this last week to give a talk in church this coming week, and was told to speak on any topic that I feel prompted to speak on. I have decided to speak on having joy and happiness throughout life. I want to talk about being happy and finding the joyful parts of life even during the hardships that we experience. This is a very close personal and sensitive issue for me. I have struggled with emotional issues for most of my life, and I have excepted these issues as one of the many trials in my life and treat it like anything else. I don't let myself become a victim of my depression, but embrace the challenge and rely on a higher power to sustain me, and not rely on myself. Through this trial, I have found the immense happiness that comes when I have changed my attitude to a happy disposition, and allow myself to be happy on the outside even though it may not match up with what is going on inside. So many blessings have come into my life by being happy about everything, and letting others know that I am a happy person. I am a thankful person. This has been the strongest part of my struggle to find joy in everything. Being thankful for everything... even the bad things has created true happiness... not just a front and fake smile. Being thankful has helped me find the light in the darkest times of my life. There is ALWAYS something to be thankful for, whether it be for your family, friends, job, school, air, or sheep dogs... there is always something that you can be thankful for. I hope my talk turns out as good as it sounds in my head.
I know that this post has been random and all over the place, but oh well. Life goes on and I will write another post later, and maybe it will be a better one. I just I type what I feel, and hopefully I will create a more structured blog that will have a better flow. Until then... deal with it!
Dang, after today, I am thankful for sleep and beds. I have this sweet sleeping mask that covers my eyes while I sleep during the day. I stole it from my little sister. Its like this black velvet, and embroidered on the front in purple it says "beauty sleep." I am thankful for fact that I can sleep so well, and feel so good. Sometimes after a long day, I get into bed and just start freaking out because I love my bed so much, and it feels so good to be under the covers and not in an office in front of a computer screen. I love sleep, and I love amazing soft beds. Thank you bed, and thank you girly sleep mask!
Working the overnight shift can be pretty boring for some people... even me. I am a very social person. I love being around people and being in the spotlight. But this over night shift twice a week is a bit of a breather for me. It is a break from the craziness that goes on in this hotel, and to have some time to myself and get paid for it. I don't want to brag, but i feel like i am a pretty intellectual person, and I like to think about life. I spend a good time of my week contemplating about things and just having some Chathum time. It helps me to resolve my inner issues, and helps me be a better person.
I was asked this last week to give a talk in church this coming week, and was told to speak on any topic that I feel prompted to speak on. I have decided to speak on having joy and happiness throughout life. I want to talk about being happy and finding the joyful parts of life even during the hardships that we experience. This is a very close personal and sensitive issue for me. I have struggled with emotional issues for most of my life, and I have excepted these issues as one of the many trials in my life and treat it like anything else. I don't let myself become a victim of my depression, but embrace the challenge and rely on a higher power to sustain me, and not rely on myself. Through this trial, I have found the immense happiness that comes when I have changed my attitude to a happy disposition, and allow myself to be happy on the outside even though it may not match up with what is going on inside. So many blessings have come into my life by being happy about everything, and letting others know that I am a happy person. I am a thankful person. This has been the strongest part of my struggle to find joy in everything. Being thankful for everything... even the bad things has created true happiness... not just a front and fake smile. Being thankful has helped me find the light in the darkest times of my life. There is ALWAYS something to be thankful for, whether it be for your family, friends, job, school, air, or sheep dogs... there is always something that you can be thankful for. I hope my talk turns out as good as it sounds in my head.
I know that this post has been random and all over the place, but oh well. Life goes on and I will write another post later, and maybe it will be a better one. I just I type what I feel, and hopefully I will create a more structured blog that will have a better flow. Until then... deal with it!
Dang, after today, I am thankful for sleep and beds. I have this sweet sleeping mask that covers my eyes while I sleep during the day. I stole it from my little sister. Its like this black velvet, and embroidered on the front in purple it says "beauty sleep." I am thankful for fact that I can sleep so well, and feel so good. Sometimes after a long day, I get into bed and just start freaking out because I love my bed so much, and it feels so good to be under the covers and not in an office in front of a computer screen. I love sleep, and I love amazing soft beds. Thank you bed, and thank you girly sleep mask!
1 comment:
Chathum time?
I guess I'm not getting enough, lol. Sometimes it's good to just sit and focus. Too often I find myself rushing to do something to avoid idleness, but idleness and pondering are different things.
Oh, and seriously, I'm jealous of your sleep mask.
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